Love hurts

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A year has passed to the day, but nothing has changed. I still miss you. You always remain right inside my heart, all the time, no matter how far I sometimes try to move apart, try to move away from you. But the truth is that I fail each time to take you out of me and my heart. I don't know why.
I loved you with the whole of my heart and I still do as madly as ever. But now that you are gone forever, sometimes I too try to move on but I fail each time to the over-powering memories of our old times. There comes a certain feeling inside me that makes me forget all hurts that you caused and instead I start longing for you once again.
It's kind of strange that even after what happened, I fail to take you out of my thoughts, even when I know that you are now gone forever and will never come back into my life.
It's not easy when you feel helpless to your own heart
I wish to start anew but something holds me back, I fail to say goodbye, I can probably never forget you. I have been failing each time.
I am really trying to let go your memories with all my might
but flashbacks run through my mind, they are so intense that my body gets numb
There are times when I feel like you are right here, right beside me. But when I open my eyes and look around, and on not finding you, that searing pain gets unbearable.

Yes, I am hurt, the way you betrayed my trust, but I have forgiven you. Because I can never hate you. Actually I am still in love you. I hope you know that no matter how hard life will be, you will always have me, whenever you need me.
Placing my hand on my chest, and letting words to come out straight from my heart, I need you to know one last thing before I go - that I have always loved you from the core of my heart, with every bit of me and I continue to miss you every moment of every single day. But I will try once again with all my might to stop feeling so blue.